in search of venus

i think of you like i think of chaos;
butterflies in a blender
and fireworks in a crowded parking lot.
you’re like this drug induced haze,
you can’t possibly be real.
you don’t dare kiss my lips,
don’t want to show your true face.
this isn’t passion, it’s not romance,
this is poison turning my insides to acid.
i know we need to stop this charade,
but you love so good when you want to,
my mind blocks the pain out; temporary amnesia.

i think of leaving you,
but can’t stop this endless slow dance.
we move in sync,
your body with mine, my heart with yours.
cowards like me hurt the most,
we cry tears for sympathy and chase ghosts.
i say you’re no good, but i still crawl back in;
i cannot do any better, you’ve spoiled me for others,
for i know i fell for celestial magnificence.

you’re moonlight bottled up;
you sweep me up like the tides,
leave me crashing and gasping for breath.
so i place my fate in your hands;
i’m a crumbling house,
i need you to fix me, brick by brick.
we’re intertwined like roots underground,
i don’t know where we start and end.
greeks say the world started with chaos.
it started with you, you’ve turned me into you.
you’ve lived a millenia now,

you embody the divine light,
so everything i own i bet on you,
i know you gamble like you breath.
i say you’re poison, you ask why i don’t leave before i die.
you don’t know what you are yet then, you don’t what you taste like.
poison only tastes like poison till you’ve swallowed it,
and i breathed you in ages ago,
all i taste now is ambrosia.